my heart is an open palm, exposed and raw
In my land of bright lights you are effervescent -
Overwhelming at once, I am oblivious the next.
You are the palpable product of words I never meant,
Of clouded judgement, infinite dreams; my sweet Regret.
My conscience weighs you down and embeds you
Somewhere in the murky depths of this sepulchral soul.
Yet there is little want of redemption for what I do,
And you and your kind maketh the stories I never told.
Even now I would sing that I am yours, Yours!
As I believe you are mine in all your tainted forms.
Sucker as I am for your taste, touch and allure,
The beauty of folly is not weeping when all else mourns.
So this is an ode to my ill-fated penchant for
Secrets I have to keep, and everything that
I loved to hold but not to possess.
That I wish to forget, but forget to regret.
Sunday, May 08, 2005
jes ended my first session of tuition after aeons of slacking. this had better be a good start to the week. no more slacking, yeaps. this is a promise i'm making to myself. although the notion of letting myself down isn't really unfamiliar. but yeah, it's better than not trying, no?
church was alright. was kinda hyper photo whoring with hwei, but most of them turned out really bad [as usual] with me in them. i really look like crap in photos. no, perhaps in real life too. ah whatever.
wellwell, being mothers' day today, and me the really good daughter, treated mom and aunty to din tai fung, which was jes alright. but it's the thought that counts anyway. got two books from life bookshop and the new hillsong united album. doesn't seem to be very promising, but we'll see. why is the mentos sold at mini toons so darn cheap compared to the school bookshop. daylight robbery of poverty stricken students. how disgraceful :)
ahh alright, going to fulfill the promise i made to myself now. industrial revolution and trigo, here i comeeee!
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